So it's Monday....again....you know? There is one of these every week...even on a holiday week because when Monday is a holiday it's really Sunday and Tuesday is Monday...make sense? OK, it has nothing to do with the title of this blog but it's a fun factoid. OK, so there is nothing fun about Mondays but...oh well.....onto the blog. :-)
So when I present as a boy the only time I feel like myself is when I 'm singing, which I do to and from work everyday and the same few songs over and over.....sure, some would call that boring but I call it voice training. Well today I was in my Jeep Wrangler driving to work, signing to my current Muse's songs (Leigh Nash and Sixpence None the Richer) and it hit me....that happens a lot actually, that I've been practicing my female voice, by singing to female vocalists, for more years than I can remember. It's also why I play the same few songs over and over and over....trying to get the tone and pitch down; studying if you will. I even sang "Kiss Me" by Sixpence via karaoke a few weeks ago. OK it was this little gay/les bar that I've been to lots of times and I know it's safe in there. But I still did it. I was shaking by a leaf but I did it. So now I know what I've been doing all those years. Shania Twain, Dixie Chicks, Amy Grant, Faith Hill and on and on. Funny thing is i use a different voice when I talk but I do seem to get by. I really do love to sing though and am thinking about voice lessons some day......I'd really love to be in a band but that's not likely so I'd settle to be comfortable signing karaoke as there are enough places to go to do that.
Stay tuned...you may hear me on Sirius Radio sometime......or not. :-)
I am sincerely,
Laura Catherine
used to be my best times was on the way to the electrologist. i would sing to the radio and tune in to fem voice songs. i read about learning not to resonate and that helped a lot. sounds like you are a bit more specific in your training. i notice i can trill better in fem voice and at times that voice approaches perfection when singing. i have a real confidence problem talking. i do try sometimes with people online. my voice and my face would be my biggest confidence hurdles. i am so shy anyway.. but i can step out when necessary. i used to play keyboard in a r and b band and sing backup. long ago. we have so much to look forward too! so much to accomplish. i just wonder if i will get it all done!
ReplyDeleteMea,
DeleteYou have to let me know if you get these relplies. Someone told me once, ok, so a lot of people told me over and over (-:) that confidence has a lot to do with passing. One had me go to the mall and sit on a bench and watch the girls. All of them, not just the nice looking ones. What I saw was lots of different looking girls. So many shapes and sizes which reminded me that there is not "female image". Yes. There is surely the "ideal" female image, the Barbie doll look if you will, but that's the ideal image, not the general female image. Not many make it to the ideal image and they are probably hell to live with anyway. :-). So, get yourself dolled up...to blend in.....and get out there. Hold your head up bit don't stare. Calmly glanced about without making direct eye contact and if you do happen to make wye contact, smile. It does wonders. You can do it!
Laura xx
actually it this did not get to my email but i read it when i found it on comments, which took some doing. well i probably need help then cause its a real chore for me to present. i have always been self concious. and now im really on the edge aren't i? actually i have been out a few times and called maam. had truck drivers open doors for me at a stop. one of the places i stop on my way to the city. but it makes me uncomfortable to present as something i am not. trouble is i am still figuring out who i am! yeesh! so hippy thing i have done before and its fairly androgenous. trouble is the cops think i am a drug dealer or something. yikes! maybe i need to move to the city.
DeleteWell if you are trans you are trans. So you can think of presenting as female as presenting as your true self. Believe me, I know what scared feels like. I guess I just got too old and too tired of hiding that I finally took the leap. I think I've come a long way in looks too. When you look at my picture in my first time out entry compared to this profile picture which is recent....there is a world of difference. Start with "safe" places, like GLBT or BDSM Munches....but get out into the world. Once you do your confidence will go up and you will actually be able to pass better.
DeletePromise. :-_) Sounds like you've had some sucess already anyway.
Laura