Sometimes age can be a plus. At 56 I cannot expect the transition of a 20+ year old. As much as I wish I was 25 at this point in my life, it is what it is. I am 56. Years of hormone treatments may only have a marginal effect on my body and no matter what I do, I will not be a 25 year old hottie.
That being said, different things take on importance with age. As much as I long to transition to living full time as a female, I also want to stay married to the woman I have loved since the first time I laid eyes on her.
So, we are in negotiations. She would like me to purge completely, clothes, wig, makeup and hormones. I really can't do that and told her so. I am thinking of compromising. My work week is a blur and I have been successful there as a boy. So what I am considering offering, and have offered, is that I become Laura for 24 hours over the course of each weekend. What day that is, is negotiable. That allows me to present in public for 24 hrs as my true self, for me, as for another 24 hrs as the husband she married. I want to continue my hormone treatments and should my body, fat chance, change enough that I cannot pass as a boy I will deal with it then. I really don't see that happening. I think I will always be able to pass as a boy. Since I seem to pass now as a female, that should only get easier. Hell, the salesgirl at Victoria's Secret asked me if I wanted to try on a bra that I was looking at, during the holiday rush! I've also concluded that, without much effort I can create at least an androgenous voice that seems natural and I've been able to converse with men and women with no problem.
So here we are, in negotiations.......will see what happens from here.
I am sincerely,
Laura Catherine
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