So I'm sitting in the lobby of the pharmacy, waiting to get my hormone prescriptions filled. Yes, my hormone prescriptions. The endocrinologist was amazing. My therapists letter was all it took for to be willing to prescribe but her manner and attitude, bedside manner if you will, was amazing. Though I went to the appt from work, presenting as male, she asked me how I would like to be called (meaning she wanted to know if I wanted to be referred to by my female name). While I shouldn't have been surprised it was an amazing feeling. Today I told her my male name would be fine (though she never used it or a male pronoun) but I asked if I could present as a female in future visits and be referred to as Laura and she said of course. Already looking forward to my next visit in three months. At the end of the day so I can leave work and get ready and present to her as Laura.
I am so excited I could jump out of my skin. To have prescriptions of Estradiol (6mg) and spirinolaetone (100 mg) with my name on them is so surreal.
On the other hand I know it's another loss for my lovely wife who has been so great through this period. I know she is grieving the loss of her husband and that makes me sad. I try to reassure her that I am the same person inside and that I will continue to love her but that only helps a little. She also isn't sure she will still love me, though she hasn't come right out and said it.
An important day, for lots of reasons.
I am sincerely,
Laura Catherine
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